have to retake english 101.

funny, pagbabasahin mo pala ulit mga entries mo, minsan may makikita kang wrong grammar no?

indolence, faintness and nonsense.

i dont feel like working today. after two days of suspension (from work) - giving you the idea that i am just a mere staff in this company - im back on my desk with lots of nonsense to do. my boss, now enjoying his branch visit at davao, left a number of responsibilities that i have to deliver asap.

and because i really do not want to do anything for the benefit of the company im currently working with, i just surf the internet and do more nonsense for my benefit. anyway, because i am merely an underrated (in terms of salary) marketing coordinator, i have to get something done so as not to appear "at leisure".

and so i created these questions for me to anwer. and will again conceptualize for more questions to answer until the clock strikes 5:45p.m. that time, im finally liberated.

fyi, i got my suspension because of my tardiness. i have to serve 5 days of no work no pay. this month, i have already earned three lates. one more late and i will be again serving my suspension, but this time, for 10 days na. just to give you an idea, this company has this policy:

1st offense - written verbal warning (for your four or more than four lates in a month)
2nd offense - written warning
3rd offense - 3-day suspension
4th offense - 5-day suspension
5th offense - 10-day suspension
6th offense - termination.

lesson of the story: i better pray and pray more to God or i have to really wake up very early.

going back, i said underrated employee because i left my former employer because of sobrang liit ng sahod. i am now serving this company because of mas malaking sweldo and yet i am still not satisfied. when will i ever be contented? i really wonder if there is really such a thing? i think so. im just not in that stage right now.

now, question to ponder:

my status:
i have a 3 year old son. i have a turning to two-year old another son. and i am now heavy with child (my ob says "its a boy"). all these babies are - sorry babies and to myself and to all those concern citizens who did not welcome my pregnancy - unscheduled.

i have a husband though, who i still believe marries me not because he got me pregnant but somehow loves me (my only consolation or otherwise).

i have a very harassing mother.

my two boys are really handsome and cute.

i have a job. i conduct trainings. i write copies for publication. i do pr. and i love my work. sometimes, i dont.

i have the-son-of-the-president boss and he really doesnt know anything about management and pr works.

i have a just okei salary and okei benefits but have a really growing family (thanks to pills that i forgot to take most of the time that's why i got pregnant again and again).

in other words, i have a life made of not so wise decisions and actions.

my run away activities
movies.
books.
crying.
hugging my babies.

i dont feel like thinking anymore. or typing anymore. got dizzy over miki's crispy herring.

back to the comforts of the unkown book.

after more than a year of hibernating, i am back (obviously) to liberate some unsolicited thoughts. this time though, i want to hear more optimistic views from myself.